Wednesday, September 9, 2009

the Mommy Brain

I have been very frustrated with my Mommy Brain lately. This morning I threw a load of laundry in the washer only to realize after half of it was in and already wet, that it was the clean laundry I just pulled out of the dryer.

I have been so unfocused, and extremely distracted lately. I know it comes with the territory of having three little ones to run around after - but I'm recognizing that my lack of focus is the reason I have been so frustrated lately.

I am a task completer. Always have been. I think just about anyone who has worked with me in the past probably knows this. I have a really hard time even starting on anything if I don't think I will be able to complete it.

Kind of a silly example, but the only one I can come up with right now, emails; I will open an email, skim it, get interrupted, mark the email as unread thinking I will get back to it, then forget to. (sorry if you are one that I have done this to, by the way)

I am very process oriented. Everything I do, I have a specific way I do it. Folding towels for example, depending on what towel it is, I have a certain way I fold it. Emptying the dishwasher. I do it the SAME way EVERY time.

Unless I get interrupted.

Which I do.

A Lot.

When I am interrupted doing just about anything, by the time I return to whatever it is, I usually do it "wrong," or there is something that doesn't go "quite right."

Oh yeah, have I mentioned I'm a bit of a perfectionist too?

So it frustrates me when things "don't go as planned." ie: re-washing the same stuff I JUST GOT FINISHED WASHING!

Then I look around my house and see how disorganized it is, and it's suffocating.

I 100% realize that I need to LET IT GO! I think that is partly why I am writing this as a blog post. Mostly it's a bit of cheap therapy. Partly it's a way to get my friends and family who read my blog to support me in finding ways to LET IT GO or get more focused!

It's even more important because I have started losing sleep over this. For the past week when I go to bed, I just lay there with my eyes wide open unable to wind down and forget about everything that I haven't gotten done. One night I finally gave in and just got out of bed and spent a half an hour writing down everything that was on my mind, in list format.

I asked Dan if I could have the house to myself for a day. He looked at me like I was crazy. Can you imagine how much I could do if I had no interruptions? Oh, I'd be in heaven!

I just re-read what I wrote and I realize that maybe I am not prioritizing very well. But one thing to consider, is that I have never had an opportunity to organize my house after moving in last fall! One week after we moved into this house I was put on bedrest. Couldn't do it then! And obviously, since the girls were born in February, things have been a little hectic around here, and I've never had a solid chunk of time to work on finding a place for everything! We still have quite a few boxes that have remained unpacked, which maybe explains my 'suffocation' feeling a little better?

Ugh - like I said, cheap therapy. I feel better getting all that off my chest!

Now, I really should put the computer away and get to my list!

1 comment:

Christy said...

amen. amen. amen. can i say it again? i'm right there with you!! i just finished an excellent book: Shopping for Time-how to do it all and not be overwhelmed. And it was SUCH a good read for me...all about re-prioritizing. Anyways, I recommend it. :) Also...check out the Passionate Homemaking blog on my sidebar, she had a great post recently about how she "does it all" but maintains a simple life. I'll try to find the exact link for you soon. It's been SO helpful to me! And now...I need to get to bed mind does the spinny thing as well!

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