Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
1. Holy cow, it's been 12 weeks!
2. If I were returning to work, today probably would have been my first day back.
3. Looking at reason #2 brings up a whole world of emotions about "officially" being a stay at home mom (SAHM).
So, with that, here are some of my thoughts about being a SAHM vs. being a Working Mom:
1. I am grateful to my husband for being able to stay at home with the kids. There is no way that I would have this opportunity without his support. Keep in mind, a lot of the decision to stay at home was made for us when we found out we would have 3 kids (daycare is EXPENSIVE), but there was a big part of me that really wanted to stay at home. Looking back, I am grateful the decision was "taken out of our hands."
2. It's a lot of work. There is no break. It's 24/7, and extremely demanding. To be totally honest, there are a lot of times I think it would be easier to be at a job. (Except for managing schedules and commuting and traveling and on and on...) Hence, for the time being, I am staying at home.
3. The guilt doesn't go away. When I went back to work after Evan was born, I felt so guilty about leaving him with "strangers." Now that I am at home, I feel guilty when I do laundry or dishes or anything other than spending every waking moment with my children. But the reality is, those things have to get done and if I actually spent every waking moment being 100% attentive to my children, I'd go crazy, and they wouldn't learn to be independent.
4. Who am I now? I would say I was a career driven person, I was happy with my last job, I was happy with where my career was headed, and I felt like I had an identity other than "Mom: butt wiper, diaper changer, meal preparer, kleenex-er." [Don't get me wrong, being called "mommy" is one of the greatest things on this earth]. I guess my new challenge (and I love a challenge) is figuring out the "new me" and how to balance that with being a wife and a mother. It's the same as every new stage in my life, I was a different person in the working world than I was in college, likewise in high school, etc., etc. Different because of my priorities, my goals, and what I find important.
5. What are my goals? When I was working, I had expectations and goals I needed to meet. That largely determined how successful I was. Well, what are the expectations and goals of motherhood? How are they determined? By society? By your children? By your family? By yourself? I understand why a lot of mothers feel like failures, because at the end of the day, it sort of feels like dinner should be on the table, the house should be clean, the kids should be happy, and you should be out of your pajamas. And when those things don't happen (most of the time in my case), you feel as if you have failed. So, I suppose my next challenge (remember, I like a challenge), is setting realistic goals.
[I should clarify that I have never been in my pajamas by the time Dan gets home from work, however, throwing on sweat pants and a t-shirt and wearing no makeup is a frequent thing now]
6. When do I go back to work? This is a question I often ask myself. I won't go into depth with all my thoughts on this (especially since this post is much longer than I thought it would be), but I am excited about the possibilities. It's one of the unknowns that I am looking forward to discovering (if you know me well, you know I have a fear of the unknown, so this is big), whenever the time is right and the opportunity presents itself.
7. Lastly, THANK GOD all 3 children nap at the same time! I have achieved at least ONE of my goals! I wasn't sure it would be possible, but I have managed to get them all sleeping at roughly the same time. If I didn't, I would never be able to have a blog. :)
Thursday, April 23, 2009
(Yea, this face)
(look at that head & neck control by the way - she is our little tummy time rock star!)
Here again at 9-1/2 weeks:
(This particular time it happened about 3 times before I finally grabbed the camera, and I was pretty happy she did it again for me! You really only need to watch the first 20 seconds or so to see it)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Happy Birthday, my sweet Evan!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Try to ignore my voice in this video and focus on the cute reactions from Brynn & Avery! When I sing to them before nap & bed time they try to sing along with me. It's much cuter in person, of course, but here is a little taste:
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Avery has been doing awesome!
Evan likes to cheer her on...
Brynn has had a harder time because her head is so big compared to her tiny little body!!
Avery decided to cheer Brynn on!
Success!! It's hard work, but with a little support from her siblings, Brynn is getting the hang of it!!
Yea! Go Brynn!!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
For anyone who got my 2 Month Update email and do not have facebook - this is the video I was referring to of Evan "reading". If you did not get my email (or don't remember), Evan has been memorizing the books we read to him, and this particular day a couple weeks ago he decided to read his book!
Avery and Brynn had separate sacs & placentas - since statistically there are more fraternal twins than identical, that is why we think they are most likely fraternal. Right now I don't think they look too much alike... until you get them sleeping... side by side...
Can you tell them apart?
Eventually I will probably want to get a DNA test done so I know for sure; but for now, I am happy just watching them grow... in some ways more alike, in other ways much different!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Monday was backwards day. Dan told me Evan was the only one that remembered to dress "correctly". He took Evan to get his haircut after he picked him up and he got some "Dad, you DO realize your child is wearing his clothes backwards?" looks!! 'Cause, ya know, Dad's don't usually notice that kind of thing...
Wednesday was mis-match day, but really, what shirt would actually match those bright orange pants?!? (Which happen to be Evan's favorite pair)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
After the park Aunt Stephanie & Cousin Avah came over and we dyed Easter Eggs - I was very impressed with how good the kids did! Even the little ones had fun playing together on the play mat!
We wrapped up the weekend on Sunday celebrating at Grandpa & Grandma K's. We had a relaxing day full of yummy food and family time! And of course, hunting for Easter Eggs!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
So, welcome to my blog!
Get the name? The Krew - with a "K", get it?? So clever, am I!